GreaLauren's avatar
This is wonderful, and it made me cry. I deal with these feelings almost every single night, depending on how stressed I am. I don't know what I have, if it's GAD, SAD, I just don't know. I know that the thoughts are usually triggered by mental exhaustion, from staying up too long or too late.. here lately it hasn't been bugging me at all but I know it will come back. It always does. I don't believe in taking medication unless absolutely necessary, that's why I taught myself how to recognize the triggers and how to be strong enough to shrug it away and that no matter what my head said, I know it's not true. It's never true. I cried because of the nightmares. I never understood that was part of the anxiety, I never read that as a symptom. I always wondered why I was dying in my dreams.. why I was always being chased or threatened at gun point or crashing into water as a passenger or driver.
I don't mean to ramble on your poem.. it's beautiful, and true to every word, thank you for writing it.