Comment on INTERNAL CONFLICT by OokamiKasumi

you have a restored my confidence I can get this story out to people, funny thing is doing it from her point of view is the easiest option as she is the charater i can most relate to [ althou i dnt enjoy killing, am not psychotic, have never been tortured + ive DEFF never killed anyone remorselessly] but I do like to make people feel uncomfortable and I kind of thrive in chaos, I don't like people and i relate to her feeling like a freak, getting it wrong all the time and misinterpreting peoples re/actions. She was actually based on my son, the character i identified with first was phoenix, his patience and love are what plant the seeds of change in her, how hard it is to be patient and not beat their brains in but u love them and so u jus have to, theyre so funny and the mistakes they make are often not purposeful, that was what was important to show, that extreme punishment inflicted on her by her father actually made her worse but after she met him, his love changed that for her, it was important for me to show that abuse makes their self esteem plummet and often make their behaviour worse, but when someone believes in them it produces within them a pride and makes their confidence soar in turn they start to beliee in themselves and affect change. Then I was diagnosed with the same condition and my perspective shifted somewhat.

I like her wickedness and her twisted viewpoint, she's funny in a totally inapropriate way, that appeals to me also, bbut its how she had to compartmentalise certain emotion to do the wicked things she learns she did, she has done it so long she does it out of habit, she cant help it. The psychology of characters really interests me a great deal too, and concentrating on one psychology is going to be SO much easier . I enjoy that she can do things I can't, but her emotions are what really appeal to me and i think i can really make her interesting, she was supposed to be a villain, but she can't even do that right, that conflict makes her easy to write for, yr tutorials R gold dust mate, honest to god!!!