Comment on Warm Cookies by erziban

yes, i am on a lot of medications--a mood stabilizer, two anti-depressants, an anti-psychotic, tranquilizers (as needed), sleeping pills, and a stimulant (as needed--for when i'm depressed and can't get out of bed and sleep too much. apparently sleeping too much is as bad as not sleeping enough. i sometimes wonder if i don't have a touch of schizophrenia as well. bipolar disorder is kind of an umbrella illness--people who have it don't just have problems with mood swings, but they usually have anxiety/panic disorder, and various others. i have that and i am ocd and have ptsd. bipolar people generally have much stronger libidos and are almost universally substance abusers (another problem i have). one of the problems with mania is that it often has a feeling of euphoria, you have tons of energy, you feel kind of meglomanical and i talk too much or write too much (like this!)i can't eat or sleep. two things that people generally do when they're manic one is outrageous spending on ridiculous items (i read a book by a bipolar person who bought $400 worth of purple embroidery thread when manic) and because they're feeling euphoria and they don't want to slow down and thus don't take their meds, it's a self perpetuating cycle. and at least for me, i'm terrified of the crash when it ends and will do almost anything to avoid becoming depressed. it's a it feels a lot like being on coke. that sort of makes sense because when one is manic they are releasing adrenalin and dopamine--basic being in the fight or flight mode for long periods of time. thanks much for the critique, i'm considering trying it again. i wrote a long reply explaining what i was getting at and some of the things you said that made a lot of sense to me. it was definitely a fair critique!