Oh we all will hit the gardens soon, just not ready to be in that much 'public', trying to just get myself ready for Jessy's wedding here in a couple of weeks. Gonna be a very emotional day for me, in waaaay to many ways to count.
I should have been going with Amber, I was really looking forward to having her at one of the most important days of my and my daughters life, something I wanted to really share with her and only her. Her not being there now is going to really hurt me. I am not going to be focusing on that of course, Jessy is more important to me than anyone else, including myself, but it is going to be eating at me until that day and the days after.
How long before I stop waking up and thinking this is a bad dream, that is what I want to know.
I should have been going with Amber, I was really looking forward to having her at one of the most important days of my and my daughters life, something I wanted to really share with her and only her. Her not being there now is going to really hurt me. I am not going to be focusing on that of course, Jessy is more important to me than anyone else, including myself, but it is going to be eating at me until that day and the days after.
How long before I stop waking up and thinking this is a bad dream, that is what I want to know.
A while longer. I had nights, months after the split, where I'd wake up crying. I wish I could tell you more, I wish healing were an easier process.
Do you need someone with you at the wedding or do you have anyone you're going with? I know you will be seeing friends and family all day but if you need someone to be there with you, to help you or be there for you, I'd be more than willing. I know nothing is more important to you than Jessy, especially on her wedding day, but I also know it will still be a painful day for you.
Do you need someone with you at the wedding or do you have anyone you're going with? I know you will be seeing friends and family all day but if you need someone to be there with you, to help you or be there for you, I'd be more than willing. I know nothing is more important to you than Jessy, especially on her wedding day, but I also know it will still be a painful day for you.
Actually my old model/friend/girlfriend is coming in from out of state. She still means a lot to me, I was part of her wedding years ago. It was a mix of Pagan and Christian, I was part of the opening and closing circle, I got to represent North and spent the entire ceremony about ten feet from her, her soon to be husband Eric up on the altar.
I had said something about Amber not being at the wedding and how I wanted to spend that day with someone I loved dearly, how much it meant for me to have Amber by my side that day. Kelly contacted Michelle and invited her to come down and basically take Amber's place for the wedding. Having her in town, let alone at the wedding with me is going to be wonderful. I have known her since High School and love her to death, even so not having Amber there is something I will never forgive her for, having her by my side for this was extremely important to me.
Healing from this for me is going to take a life time. She has no idea what she has done to me.
I had said something about Amber not being at the wedding and how I wanted to spend that day with someone I loved dearly, how much it meant for me to have Amber by my side that day. Kelly contacted Michelle and invited her to come down and basically take Amber's place for the wedding. Having her in town, let alone at the wedding with me is going to be wonderful. I have known her since High School and love her to death, even so not having Amber there is something I will never forgive her for, having her by my side for this was extremely important to me.
Healing from this for me is going to take a life time. She has no idea what she has done to me.
I'm glad you have someone there for you.
I know it will take a long time to heal, but it does get easier day by day.
I'm here for you if need me.
I know it will take a long time to heal, but it does get easier day by day.
I'm here for you if need me.
...as long as she makes it down.