At the secret show he someone asked him about the meaning of Vanilla Twilight. He said when he was in high school a girl he really cared about was killed in car crash and went to heaven. The song is about missing her.
I've heard the rumors it was about something like that, but knowing it's true just makes it even more sad.
I'm sorry you didn't have anyone to dance with. He closed with the same song here. My venue was all seated so there was no room to dance. I just sorta swayed.