I understand perfectly, but you can move past it.
I've lived a pretty rough life too. Your neighbourhood describes my family.
They are full of rapists and child molesters., and although I was molested by them, I was by others.
My mother ignores all problems and likes to think that everything is okay.
She was abused all her life, and because of it I also suffered.
I didn't receive enough affection as a child and as a result I didn't bond with my mother and because of that, my emotions are really messed up and I find it hard to relate to people most of the time when it comes to basic things.
I've been homeless living in a car, had no Christmas, my education was cut short when I was 13.
I suffered from Agoraphobia and my mother never took me to the doctor. "You're fine" she'd say, "everything's fine." but it never was.
Towards the end, she was starving me until I was underweight and made it really hard to live with her. She ended up kicking me out.
But you know what? I moved passed it all and I am back on my feet. I'm in the right direction. That's why I believe in the power of the human mind. It may be hard, but imagine the reward at the end