Ty for your thoughtful comment. Yes, I do think this would be the exact time. However, I have to decide what I "want." I know what seems to be required of me and have sort of set the wheels in motion to sort of recreate myself and my life, according to what I have learned about myself, my strengths, my limitations.
I do not think I have been quiet enough or listened enough, first. This is pretty typical of me. I try to listen, get quiet... and of course I watch for synchronicity,try to sense when I am being guided, "ask to know" as I often suggest to my students/clients...
But still, I think I am rather noisy inside, and rather human in this regard. I will think on this, and when/if I am ready, make a mandala. I suppose I should just listen to my own rhetoric, "jump in the pool," as I often say, and see what happens when I put pencil to paper.
Maybe the making of the mandala will teach me, guide me, reveal itself. I find this to be so with poetry, drawing in general... so I should just trust, trust, trust and get to mandala making.
I am just so overwhelmed right now, and feel like I am living in a dream or some alternate reality, where I do not quite recognize myself, my partner, my little world, or even the world at large. It all seems so sped up, strange, sort of like the world I remember, but also very unfamiliar...
like I woke up from a dream and all was changed...
or maybe I went from one dream into another...
or maybe my previous life was all a dream and this is reality.
All seem like possibilities. Hmmmm...