Comment on Inspired by Derkesthai Dreams by denise-g
It is also hard, I think, to see personal growth within your own works because you are so close to it. I dont know that I really see any growth in mine, though others tell me Im getting better ??? I dunno. I enjoy it, thats all I know. I know my stuff isnt bad, but Im no Denise artist yet 
I can judge this even hard, because I like many of your images from the time before Janet's course.
I've looked your gallery once again and my impression is, they have become more wildly in the
expression, I mean this in the good way, they follow less certain orders like symmetry or harmony.
Your style has changed during the last weeks, but whether on grounds of the course or your personal
experiences I cannot say.
But I know that you have done your homework always in your own style and I find this very good.
Many of my homeworks are completely different than my present images, but this is due to the fact
that I must follow first of all Janets executions step by step to understand them really and to remind.
I read it, understand it and have forgotten it one minute later. I must do it, so that I can remind it.
And to be able to understand properly around it, I try to create a similar picture.
Do you know what I mean? I must learn the techniques with the help of her images and can move
them then only in my images.
That's why I was frustrated this week very much. I find all examples really good, but I could
understand none of it. I only could read it but not done. I have only already spent two days to create
a similar startlayer with this fucking Rose Range Lite formular. But I couldn't create a spiral with
these big round shapes. I always have too many loops, tapes, flourishes and such stuff. And with
it the example worked not well.
It was the same with the other examples. The examples work for me only with similar spirals,
so shapes which don't have so many flourishes. This lesson is absolutely useless for me at the
moment, because I only can read it but can't understand it. I hope this will changes later.
I've looked your gallery once again and my impression is, they have become more wildly in the
expression, I mean this in the good way, they follow less certain orders like symmetry or harmony.
Your style has changed during the last weeks, but whether on grounds of the course or your personal
experiences I cannot say.
But I know that you have done your homework always in your own style and I find this very good.
Many of my homeworks are completely different than my present images, but this is due to the fact
that I must follow first of all Janets executions step by step to understand them really and to remind.
I read it, understand it and have forgotten it one minute later. I must do it, so that I can remind it.
And to be able to understand properly around it, I try to create a similar picture.
Do you know what I mean? I must learn the techniques with the help of her images and can move
them then only in my images.
That's why I was frustrated this week very much. I find all examples really good, but I could
understand none of it. I only could read it but not done. I have only already spent two days to create
a similar startlayer with this fucking Rose Range Lite formular. But I couldn't create a spiral with
these big round shapes. I always have too many loops, tapes, flourishes and such stuff. And with
it the example worked not well.
It was the same with the other examples. The examples work for me only with similar spirals,
so shapes which don't have so many flourishes. This lesson is absolutely useless for me at the
moment, because I only can read it but can't understand it. I hope this will changes later.
I think the changes in my style emerging now is because I am starting to feel more comfortable with UF, now that I am able to use it with intent more than just 'happy accidents' me is coming out more? It makes me happy to think I have a 'style.' Its hard for me to see that firsthand, proly cuz I am so close to my own works and I just let pieces move me a s they will and I do like to try to be different than the norm, to streatch the limits of myself and the program I am using. I am touched to hear you find good in my homework. I am always so uncertain. I look at what others create -- you, jackie, sue and I think wow. why cant -I- come up with things like THAT!! You guys blow Janet away and impress her and are on a totally different tier than the rest of us. Im still floundering somewhere below you guys in skill. So to hear YOU say that you see good in what I do impresses me because I think that you are so much better....
I have to follow Janets instructions the same as you do...I always follow her examples, trying to use pieces or shapes that are almost identical to hers (as close as I can get them) so that I can fully absorb things. THEN I go back later and play with my own shapes and forumlas and often times it takes a LOT of trial and error to find something that even remotely works. I too get frustrated with it, because we are on a time frame to get things done and often the time that I can allot to homework is compressed into only one or two days. Granted, Ill have nearly all day those days but its all that I have and the rest of the week is shot so if I dont utilize that time, i wont get it done at all. And it takes me literally ALL DAY. Im talking hours upon hours and sometimes many tears because yeah...I struggle. Its not just you doll. Trust me on this.
If there is ANYTHING I can do to help you, please please please email me or note me here. Explain to me what it is that is confusing you, where you are having some of the issues and if I can help you to understand better I so will. I find sometimes going back to old pieces from our first course to get basic shapes helps me out a ton in finding spirals that mimic her examples. If you need or would like a start layer, dont hesitate to ask me...If I have one you need Ill gladly send it to you and shhhh our secret ok? No need to take that much time when time is so limited to find something that works. Please, I want to help and it hurts me to see you hurt and frustrated, I want to fix it and make it better if I can.
Im still floundering somewhere below you guys in skill. So to hear YOU say that you see good in what I do impresses me because I think that you are so much better....I have to follow Janets instructions the same as you do...I always follow her examples, trying to use pieces or shapes that are almost identical to hers (as close as I can get them) so that I can fully absorb things. THEN I go back later and play with my own shapes and forumlas and often times it takes a LOT of trial and error to find something that even remotely works. I too get frustrated with it, because we are on a time frame to get things done and often the time that I can allot to homework is compressed into only one or two days. Granted, Ill have nearly all day those days but its all that I have and the rest of the week is shot so if I dont utilize that time, i wont get it done at all. And it takes me literally ALL DAY. Im talking hours upon hours and sometimes many tears because yeah...I struggle. Its not just you doll. Trust me on this.
If there is ANYTHING I can do to help you, please please please email me or note me here. Explain to me what it is that is confusing you, where you are having some of the issues and if I can help you to understand better I so will. I find sometimes going back to old pieces from our first course to get basic shapes helps me out a ton in finding spirals that mimic her examples. If you need or would like a start layer, dont hesitate to ask me...If I have one you need Ill gladly send it to you and shhhh our secret ok? No need to take that much time when time is so limited to find something that works. Please, I want to help and it hurts me to see you hurt and frustrated, I want to fix it and make it better if I can.
And here it is again: You give me in one breath laughter and tears Darling. (I'm fine hon 
)
I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your offer and will make use
absolutely also of it. At the moment I am almost ready with all my homework.
In the summer break I will go once again trough all lessons and then I could
maybe need your help. After the end of the course I will do first of all a break
with UF, no spirals or other fractals for a week.
>>Im talking hours upon hours and sometimes many tears because
yeah...I struggle. Its not just you doll. Trust me on this.<<
This calms me hon, especially because of the tears. I have told nobody about
my tears because I thought, it is silly to cry about such things. It helps me to
know i'm not the only one...lol ....Many hugs and kisses Darling.
)I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your offer and will make use
absolutely also of it. At the moment I am almost ready with all my homework.
In the summer break I will go once again trough all lessons and then I could
maybe need your help. After the end of the course I will do first of all a break
with UF, no spirals or other fractals for a week.
>>Im talking hours upon hours and sometimes many tears because
yeah...I struggle. Its not just you doll. Trust me on this.<<
This calms me hon, especially because of the tears. I have told nobody about
my tears because I thought, it is silly to cry about such things. It helps me to
know i'm not the only one...lol ....Many hugs and kisses Darling.
I cant wait to see your homework. Your abilities always blow me away, even if you think that they are not so wonderful. They are. Trust me. You see and approach things in a way that no one else in the class does and while that may feel ....whats the word..hmmm. foreign to you to stand alone like that, its really neat to see how it just WORKS. I learn so much just by looking over your parameters. I really do.
It is always ok to cry...even over this art stuff. But then, I am a huge sissy lol. My bodys way of dealing with stress is to cry. If I am extremely angry it is very hard to stop the water works. And my filthy mouth that would make a sailor blush as Im sitting there, sobbing and cursing at the monitor, my husband looking at me sideways and then leaving the room lol
Sometimes we have to cry and vent and release and then pick up and try again when we are weaker and more vulnerable. Though I sometimes wonder in those moments if I will EVER get it right. I eventually come up with something at least passable, even if not great. So that is good.
I will be more than happy to help you out with anything you should need. I wont be taking the third class this summer. Ill have to wait until the fall. We will have our vacation during the times that the course is going on, my son is home for summer break and he monopolizes a ton of my time, as well as he should. AND I am taking an advanced childrens lit class that will be eating up my freetime that fractal class did. Granted that class is a two year commitment, but Ill be able to look at throwing in the third UF class when Tyler goes back to school in the fall (September) and can prolly juggle it alongside writing assignments. I might not get things turned in on time as I have been able to do in the last two courses lol...but I could at least get to them, I think.
Hey sweet girl, hang in there. My ears and shoulders are always yours to talk to and lean on. We can share the tissue box and a few stiff drinks to get us by.
It is always ok to cry...even over this art stuff. But then, I am a huge sissy lol. My bodys way of dealing with stress is to cry. If I am extremely angry it is very hard to stop the water works. And my filthy mouth that would make a sailor blush as Im sitting there, sobbing and cursing at the monitor, my husband looking at me sideways and then leaving the room lol
Sometimes we have to cry and vent and release and then pick up and try again when we are weaker and more vulnerable. Though I sometimes wonder in those moments if I will EVER get it right. I eventually come up with something at least passable, even if not great. So that is good.I will be more than happy to help you out with anything you should need. I wont be taking the third class this summer. Ill have to wait until the fall. We will have our vacation during the times that the course is going on, my son is home for summer break and he monopolizes a ton of my time, as well as he should. AND I am taking an advanced childrens lit class that will be eating up my freetime that fractal class did. Granted that class is a two year commitment, but Ill be able to look at throwing in the third UF class when Tyler goes back to school in the fall (September) and can prolly juggle it alongside writing assignments. I might not get things turned in on time as I have been able to do in the last two courses lol...but I could at least get to them, I think.
Hey sweet girl, hang in there. My ears and shoulders are always yours to talk to and lean on. We can share the tissue box and a few stiff drinks to get us by.
Thank you so much hon. I'll give you the reply for this comment in a note.
It will take a bit more time.
It will take a bit more time.