I know how that feels....I often find myself doing things I don't really want to just to be near a certain someone or acting different to make others like me...I'm trying really hard to just be me.
I do the same things. You know, there's a whole community of people who claim to be alone, when we all have a lot of the same problems. It's nice to know that there's someone out there going through something similar to me. Thanks I needed that.