Your words just really warmed my heart. Thank you so much, you are too kind!!
Yes, it is frustrating at times. The uncertainty of any finances coming in is often grinding and depressing.... I know I will never have things others take for granted, like renting a nice place or be able to even afford and run a car. But that's fine with me. I have chosen this path, and I guess I would be really unhappy if I would not be able to do what I love most. The knowledge that there are people out there who care about my well being does help a great amount.
I do hope I can grow as an artist eventually, I just wish I wouldn't need to fear for something stupid as money all the time...