Let me start by saying that God does love you, and He always always will. No one has a right to judge you, especially people that proclaim Christianity. I'll be honest, I don't understand homosexuality, but I think I would have to be a lesbian in order for me to truly understand. But just because I don't understand it, doesn't mean I'm going to judge you for it. I'm a Christian, but I believe in God's word, not man's, and God tells us to love our neighbors as ourselves. I do my best to treat everyone with respect, and after all that you've gone through, I believe you deserve it the most. I'm proud of you for being so strong through this, and I am so so sorry that people have been so awful to you. Just please know that God loves you, and He will gladly accept you into His arms if you turn to Him. I'm not going to tell you what you should or shouldn't do because I'm human and I make mistakes 24/7. I'm here to tell you that there are people out there that will care about you regardless, and please don't let people put you down. Pray to God about your problems, and if you truly mean it from your heart, He will answer any questions you have 100000000 times better than I could ever dream of answering. God bless you, and stay strong. <3