agnidevi's avatar
Well I didn't say I fit to every line in this example.

What I'm saying here is no matter how good you're or how much you've accomplished, you never feel secure. Your soul never rest.
CatalanoMedia's avatar
" you never feel secure. Your soul never rest."
I guess I'm more pragmatic, logical and unemotional,
Which is why I wouldn't dwell enough on a "cold shower feel. Everyone is better. F*ck! Even the monkey can draw better stuff!" feeling.

How old are you?
I'm old enough to know that if I was making a living doing what you're doing, that ENOUGH people think I'm talented enough to pay me that I may live.
But most of all, knowing that getting better is just a matter of investing the time to learn and practice.

"What I'm saying here is no matter how good you're or how much you've accomplished, you never feel secure. Your soul never rest"
"I have been through this cycle many times."
That's a very human emotion that many haven't overcome, and when they don't, they end up going through " this cycle many times."
Once you see it's a cycle, it's up to you to say "ok, I'll just keep practicing until I get where I want to be".
Problem is, we humans indulge in moods. Good moods or bad moods.
It's a lot more...efficient to just move on and focus on improving yourself instead of whining about it

-But you have an audience.
On top of whatever moods you may feel you have an audience here on DA that'll eat out of your hands whenever you post a journal.
That feeds whatever moods you want to feed.
Recognition.
Acknowledgement.
Affirmation.

I was like you.
Emotional.
Human.
But I've read a lot of books that emphasize and teach  to grow more analytical instead of emotional.

If you want a "just get shit done" attitude and focus on getting shit done, I recommend these books:
The art of happiness by the Dalai Lama
"The Way of Walking Alone by Miyamoto Musashi. (very short, can probably be found for free)
How to stop worrying and start living by Dale Carnegie.

But trust me, I understand if you'd rather stay where you are and keep getting emotional and transmitting your feelings to your audience.
I wish you the best in all your endeavors.