Well maybe it's true. I never felt like I belonged anywhere. And every time I gave in to God's call -or so I believe it has to be- I'd happily try, happily let it wash over me, until someone's hand pulls me back and I get lost again. I think it happened 4 times now?
This life, is just scaring me beyond words. People, scare me beyond words.
I even started to feel scared of the words that are in the Bible, so I am between the two and unable to know what is the truth or not, even my heart can't tell me anymore which way to go.
This is just sad, and right now my life is at its most critical point. I am exposed, I am completely naive and confused and people take huge advantage of me, and I find no shelter anywhere.
I'm just feeling like I shouldn't even be here, or so it is how people make me feel more and more. ^^"