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makazemafuu's avatar
I was interested in your work and saw this DD and all the hate it got.
I'm sorry people try to make you back off from doing typography and more of all, trying to bash you up for being a believer. I'm so far- agnostic or in an uncertainty position. I had beliefs, have had for a while still today but I am lost, and don't know what is right or wrong, I live in the fear because my entire family and friends are constantly making fun of Christianity or criticizing it, although they say they don't hate "religious" people (I don't like this term, because to me it means being lost into religiosity and I believe having such beliefs is more than just following a religion, it's living in the joy of something we love) - they do not see the hurt they cause and I don't dare talk about it with anyone around me.

I really enjoy this work, and I am happy it got a DD. Both, for how beautiful it is made, and also for the message it brings. To me what is sad are people who do not believe in anything, not that they live a bad life or are bad people, but I always was sad thinking there was nothing that would happen after our deaths, or that we're just one in a million, too small to count in this world. I am happy when I think there will be something again after this life, and to think that even if I am one in a million, I at least for sure count to the eyes of someone bigger than the world itself.

But, like I said, I am very much afraid of all this, my feelings, the world around us, all the hate we get. It's a label, that people bash way too often, and unlike people into religiosity, true believers only wanna praise what makes them happy and share it, for example, what attracts me in Christianity are simply all the love and positive attitude I get each time. Like when I hear a Christian song, that gives me hope and strength.
This world gave so much hate against what at first was a message about love that now, if you believe, you are immediately seen as a judgmental person, hating on everything that is not Christian-like, as if believing meant that we are for example automatically homophobic or living in those old values, like in the Old Age. Everyone sees this as a prison, and more reason to hate.

Sometimes, it is even the non-believers that hate first on those who believe than the contrary.
Anyway, this is scary how nowadays people like me can't even know what to do anymore, between what makes them feel better and what the world would think about me, judge me and put me into a category. Like I'm not even 100% sure of what I believe in, like I said I am agnostic, but I guess I am very curious and open-minded, so I like quotes from the Bible and Christian Rock for the happy feelings it gives me.

Felt like sharing this~! Congratulation again on the DD! :heart:
416brass's avatar
You speak of the world like only one who doesn't belong to it does. I have only ever known Christians to really understand it...except for myself in the years before I became one. I was agnostic as well, torn between God's calling and the world which tried to force me to be an atheist.
makazemafuu's avatar
Well maybe it's true. I never felt like I belonged anywhere. And every time I gave in to God's call -or so I believe it has to be- I'd happily try, happily let it wash over me, until someone's hand pulls me back and I get lost again. I think it happened 4 times now?

This life, is just scaring me beyond words. People, scare me beyond words.
I even started to feel scared of the words that are in the Bible, so I am between the two and unable to know what is the truth or not, even my heart can't tell me anymore which way to go.
This is just sad, and right now my life is at its most critical point. I am exposed, I am completely naive and confused and people take huge advantage of me, and I find no shelter anywhere.
I'm just feeling like I shouldn't even be here, or so it is how people make me feel more and more. ^^"
416brass's avatar
can we continue this conversation in a note by any chance?
makazemafuu's avatar
Sure, feel free to note me if you wanna talk! ^-^