sounds that she can't handle having a child with disability. she probably blames herself, but instead of working to do everything she can for her child, she pretends she's a victim to get sympathy. if she tried to get sympathy for her autistic son, she'd get other mothers that are in the same situation to "suck it up and take care of your child." well, maybe that's what she needs to hear. she's avoiding reality, and that is harmful for her and everyone around her.
that's why I'm working on getting psychoanalyzed. I show text book symptoms for social anxiety disorder and PTSD, but since I do not self diagnose, I need a fully professional diagnosis. both my psychologist and psychiatrist said it looks very certain, but I need the actual testing. I'm afraid of myself if I don't understand my own mind. I tried to run from it when I was a teen, but becoming an adult made me realize that I need to get to know it and learn to live with it. it is indeed "crippling" like the woman said, and I honestly think I should file for state disability. I don't know why anyone would want to pretend to have these things, they are not fun. the inability to live a normal human life makes you feel like a caged animal. everyone looks at you like you're some inhuman creature, and while time moves forward around you, you're standing still, living every day the same way, trying to keep your mind in check, no changes, no growth, nothing. the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting new results. well, I've come to the point where I've realized there won't be new results, but god do I wish there was. just the act of doing the same things over and over again is enough to drive anyone mad.