Yeah, I understand. I had it difficult yesterday as well after I've read Leons and Nicky's journal's. Even that I didn't knew him that long, I cried for at least 30 minutes yesterday after I've learned.
I...I'm fine, just a little shaken up...i...I called Matty yesterday...then hung up...i couldn't believe it was real...I cried for...well it felt like forever. In just trying to surround myself with good people...I nearly...did it to...when someone you loved...dies before your eyes...it's...it's hard...
I know how it feels like. After I learned of it I cried for so long and nobody could cheer me up for that moment. The reason why is because I once lost a good friend he comitted suicide when I was 16. I'm 25 now, but the whole thing that happened let me remind of my friend I lost back then.