Who am I?


Why do people think I'm Aneroxic? Not that I am.

Guess I should add some stuff....

I don't know why but I feel kinda neutral feelings right now. I think I might just write about how I've been feeling because people seem to think I have none...

Right now I'm kind of confused because I'm not sure if I want to goto my dad's or not. It's either good t.v. or internet. I'm not to sure.

Lately I've been thinking "Do I deserve Rachel?" I mean, she's so cute and fun to be with, but in my mind I'm thinking "She should be with a beautiful girl, not me..." This sucks. Half my mind is arguing I deserve alot more then I let myself have. And the the other half is just cruely reminding me about my past. I don't want to write about my past, I might cry if I do.

I've been trying to work out the problems I have with my brother, but he just doesn't want too. I try so hard to be nice to him and then he decides to insult me and make fun of me. A week ago he decided to critisize my my eating habits. And I don't think I have ever felt such disbelief before. How dare he?! He weighs 40 pounds me then I do. He has no right to critisize me or what I eat. I was so upset I went into my room, punched the wall, and cried for along time.

Kaitlin and I have really been working hard at figuring out why we bother each other so much. Last friday we had a long talk and I told her many things I hadn't told another soul for nearly 2 months. It felt so good to lift those things off my chest I went over to her house and broke down crying in her arms saying "I don't desevre you as a friend." I hope she realizes she has had a great impact on my life and that I care for her like the sister I wish I had. I'm having happy tears.

I'm not enjoying my mom right now. She has told me she might take some of the cats out of my neiburhood and leave them in the country side. I wish she wouldn't get so annoyed when she is PMSing. Stupid full moon.

I have to say for nearly 4 months I haven't gotten into an argument with my dad. But I'm disapointed in him. I finially got all A's and B's on my reportcard. I haven't done that in 6 years. All he said was "I'm proud of you." I mean, he put so much emphasis on getting A's and B's, and all he says is what he has told me for years when I have gotten much less then A's and B's. For some reason I was exspecting somthing more. It didn't have to be more then like... I DON'T KNOW! I just wanted more.

I'm not happy now. I'm going to stop writing.

-J'en

So... Why's you get this thing, anyway? haha Compared to me, you've had it forever! BTW all my stuff's in the scaps thingy


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What is your chlamydia doing in my eye?!

preconcieved ideas ruin the moment. just forget them and let things flow

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"I have a penis."

hellooo j'en!

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Kiss me deadly, Kiss me, kill me, love me

o.O heh I didn't know you had a DA account too. I'm going to DAwatch you

~Mai

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Fight the good fight

I'm such an idiot.... I don't know how to use my journal... Kick me now.



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I'm also known as Tentickles.
Actively searching for Tattoo's!

I figured it out. go me. hehe. Im such an ass sometimes...

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I'm also known as Tentickles.
Actively searching for Tattoo's!

YOU HAVE BEEN KISSED!!!

Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)


*dingding* RULES:
1- You can kiss the person who kissed you!
2- You can't kiss the person more than 3 times
3- You -MUST- kiss 6 other people
4- You should kiss them in public! Paste it on their user page! c'mon..don't be scared of public displays of affection
5- Random kisses are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
6- You should most definitly get started kissing right away!

COME ON PEOPLE!! START KISSING

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Kiss me deadly, Kiss me, kill me, love me

You do realize I have a fear of kissing correct?

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I'm also known as Tentickles.
Actively searching for Tattoo's!