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hi nikki honey... of course i remember you, how could i forget such a fantastic, supportive, caring friend, as you were to me. i'm sorry i havent been around for, gosh... ages. theres been some stuff happening, and i havent really had time to be part of anyones lives except my own. i felt like i needed to get away from this place, because although it is a fantastic outlet, i thought that there could be a chance i would use it as a trigger for more bad things, and i needed to stay out of that mindset where i would let that happen, you know? its worked too. i havent cut since... god, its been over 2 years. and it feels really good. i was just so scared i would fall back into the same routines and habits. i had to stay away.
im really sorry though. i would be lying if i said i havent missed you, and other people here. at some stages during the time i spent here, you were one of the people who just kept me hanging on. thank you for that... i have missed your friendship and constant support. but i dont think i can be here just yet, you know? i miss you too sweetie. i think about you and the others sometimes and wonder whether i would be here without you, and the answer i always come up with is ' probably not'. you guys saved me, and ive repaid you with absence. im sorry about that. i hope you can understand hun... i still you very very much. you will always hold a special place in my memory. maybe one day i'll come back here, and if i do you'll be the first to know... take care sweetheart xoxox

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If this isn't love, then this is the closest I've ever been. Do you think we have a chance tonight? As streetlights sing an Audrey's song