I've gotten used to being alone to the point that it really if ever bothers me.
On the other stuff...*shrugs* I'm past the point of giving a shit. Honestly I was better if I never met people like her at all, sure that would mean no KG or meeting you, but given how things are. Maybe that is what should have happened. No more headaches for myself or anyone else. Had I known things would be like this before joining RC's forum where I first met you or KP or KG, I'd rather avoid such forums. I did keep my promise to never bother with kaiju forums again since KG and I meant it. Besides it would probably repeat itself all over again. Nope, not this time. I don't care about Christine. She probably should have stayed in that nuthouse she once told me she was put in. Multiple personality disorder and bipolar? Talk about a stress test with no off button. LOL Not to mention no order at all, just a big mess with no reason to it. I rather not be anywhere near a freak like that. As to my thinking and not letting go. I believe I told you how there are thing you can't forget, no matter what you try. A freak like her who's negative comments pop up when my stepdad behaves just like that makes it very difficult to forget. It's like not only her bullshit I had to deal with but his too. Which is why I do grin when I see negativity happen to them. Such as he nearly dies in a car accident some years ago or she lost her meds and freaked out over it. I laugh at that. The funniest was him telling me of how he went flying out of the truck. "So, how was the flight?" was my response to it all. He's in the hospital bed cut up, blood on him, and I'm laughing. He's not a family member or a friend so why should I care if he is near death? Freaks like those two deserve it.
Being social or trying to be is not a goal for me. You say it like I have to get friend. to me, it's not something all that important. Seriously when every friendship fails, you usually end up seeing the reason, me. So I say fuck it on continuing that trend. I know I screw that up. Don't socialize or try to open myself up to making more friends. I have more fun making artwork, reading a book, or building scale models. I don't get lonely with those as my interests to keep me occupied.
You're just hiding behind a facade of apathy Mark. I'm not stupid nor am I blind. You do care about Christine or else you would not bring her up EVERY single time you send me a message. So she still bothers you, a lot. And now you have this hate for anybody showing any sign of mental disorder because of one experience. Which is extremely shallow.
I just mentioned something that happened recently to me that proves my point. Read it and then reply.
Yeah well experience shapes the mind dude. Besides you try dealing with someone who threatens you if you don't listen to them or likes to put you down every day. I'm fucking happy one asshole who I had to live with for 16 years is gone forever. I feel much happier about that.
I think that's sickening Mark how you can just talk about someone's death like that. Experiences shape the mind, but it's how a person reacts/learns from those experiences that make them a sensible person or not.
Well given how that guy treated me I do not give a shit about him.
Another example is some months ago my grandfather on my dad's side died. I reacted as I am now. Hey the guy once beat me, and my dad caught him and threw him out. Haven't heard of or seen teh fucker until the death is when I heard of him. Everyone said the same. "Hey he's still family." Uh when someone is as cold as he was why give a shit at all? I even had a dream that he came to visit and I snapped at him. Abusive asshole is gone. I do not care at all.
This is really my views of people who have been nothing but jerks or hurtful. They deserve nothing from me except my anger toward them for what they did.
I'm more obsessive with my hobbies like kaiju and NASA. People are really next to nothing with me. I have more important things to do than pay attention to people who aren't friends and I do forget about them after a while.
On the other stuff...*shrugs* I'm past the point of giving a shit. Honestly I was better if I never met people like her at all, sure that would mean no KG or meeting you, but given how things are. Maybe that is what should have happened. No more headaches for myself or anyone else. Had I known things would be like this before joining RC's forum where I first met you or KP or KG, I'd rather avoid such forums. I did keep my promise to never bother with kaiju forums again since KG and I meant it. Besides it would probably repeat itself all over again. Nope, not this time. I don't care about Christine. She probably should have stayed in that nuthouse she once told me she was put in. Multiple personality disorder and bipolar? Talk about a stress test with no off button. LOL Not to mention no order at all, just a big mess with no reason to it. I rather not be anywhere near a freak like that. As to my thinking and not letting go. I believe I told you how there are thing you can't forget, no matter what you try. A freak like her who's negative comments pop up when my stepdad behaves just like that makes it very difficult to forget. It's like not only her bullshit I had to deal with but his too. Which is why I do grin when I see negativity happen to them. Such as he nearly dies in a car accident some years ago or she lost her meds and freaked out over it. I laugh at that. The funniest was him telling me of how he went flying out of the truck. "So, how was the flight?" was my response to it all.
Being social or trying to be is not a goal for me. You say it like I have to get friend. to me, it's not something all that important. Seriously when every friendship fails, you usually end up seeing the reason, me. So I say fuck it on continuing that trend. I know I screw that up. Don't socialize or try to open myself up to making more friends. I have more fun making artwork, reading a book, or building scale models. I don't get lonely with those as my interests to keep me occupied.
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Yeah well experience shapes the mind dude. Besides you try dealing with someone who threatens you if you don't listen to them or likes to put you down every day. I'm fucking happy one asshole who I had to live with for 16 years is gone forever. I feel much happier about that.
Another example is some months ago my grandfather on my dad's side died. I reacted as I am now. Hey the guy once beat me, and my dad caught him and threw him out. Haven't heard of or seen teh fucker until the death is when I heard of him. Everyone said the same. "Hey he's still family." Uh when someone is as cold as he was why give a shit at all? I even had a dream that he came to visit and I snapped at him. Abusive asshole is gone. I do not care at all.
This is really my views of people who have been nothing but jerks or hurtful. They deserve nothing from me except my anger toward them for what they did.
I'm more obsessive with my hobbies like kaiju and NASA. People are really next to nothing with me. I have more important things to do than pay attention to people who aren't friends and I do forget about them after a while.