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I am done with all of my mistakes and how I have fucked up numerous times. My mind won't let go of the guilt and my mom certainly pounded that deep in my skull. I don't want life to be a burden upon myself and everyone else including you. Thoughts of cheating lying killing all of it just kills me inside and is no longer worth dealing with. I know you still care but just forget it all happened and be free and happy.
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what mistakes? youve done nothing wrong and you arent a burden
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if I wasnt such a mistake why do my parents push me to do this? All I am is a weakling for I couldn't even do anything on my own without my parents but once they started this favortism and hypocracy I have no one but Alex and she doesn't know this... feeling of dread and torment that inflicts me but I just... this car accident fucked my head up so much that I just want to releive it all.
daniireannelittle's avatar
YOU HAD A CAR ACCIDENT???!!!
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yeah and then thoughts of if I had killed someone ran through my head then my mother seemed to think that wasn't the first fucking thought in my head. Guilt. The true killer of killers and the fools who try not to...
daniireannelittle's avatar
what is goin on with your parents??? are you alright??????why are you so suicidal? 
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I reflected and found no more purpose to live... not even for Alex...
daniireannelittle's avatar
You are too young to know that. i dont even know that myself and i am 20.
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