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D'aw, I didn't make the list. :boo:

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I am the eye peering through the tears of my ravished heart, my single vision impaired by my soul hanging before me, tattered and torn, the word "Pain" carved upon my heart, "Love" long since healed over. :fork:

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D'aw, I didn't make the list. :boo:

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I am the eye peering through the tears of my ravished heart, my single vision impaired by my soul hanging before me, tattered and torn, the word "Pain" carved upon my heart, "Love" long since healed over. :fork:
Ask and you shall recieve :heart:

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Im a Phenomena...
<3

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I am the eye peering through the tears of my ravished heart, my single vision impaired by my soul hanging before me, tattered and torn, the word "Pain" carved upon my heart, "Love" long since healed over. :fork:
I don't know what sprung you to write this -
but let me tell you something.

Today, I fought with 4 of the closest people. It was a bunch of bullcrap, but the thing I told them was --
" I really fucking feel like I'm just going to go kill myself now. I'm just going to go do a bunch of heroin and kill myself. I just can't trust anyone. I'm too fucking skeptical of having friends now. I just can't. "


Pretty vicious on my part - but you know, I normally never get mad. I never say things like that - I would like to call myself always in control. If they piss me off, I bite my lip and tolerate it because even underneath all my cold and tough bs I still long for the ability to please people. But yeah, they pissed me off that I said something like that - and it was in all seriousness, too.

I lay there for awhile, thinking about dying. Not answering them.
Then out of the blue, I logged onto Furcadia. I went around seeing if anyone in our crew was online. I'd met you guys like what, two three days ago?
But on Furc I get to be everything I'm not IRL.
Caring, passionate, adorable, little Alice.

I don't know why I act this way online. I'm not saying I'm being fake. It's all real. But it's just not how I am IRL.
IRL I'm popular, surrounded by friends at school, someone that everyone seems to try and get to know.
In public I like to be polite, courteous, I'm nice to all of them even if I find them moronic or annoying. Though it might be because I think I'm above these people, and I think they know I feel that way.
I'm not really close to any of them. Everyone thinks i'm intimidating. Tough. A stone. If they come to be crying, looking for advice - I'm more blunt and honest then they would of appreciated.
Being kind, caring when someone is upset and trying to cheer them up is all effort for me. But with you guys, I'm willing to be as sweet as it takes to cheer you up.
I'm just a mean person. I don't really like many people. People end up not liking me. I don't endorse relationships. I don't encourage anyone. I just don't do a lot of things that nice normal people should do, I make people feel lke shit and I ruin the lives of some because I break their heart. And I don't care. I just care about myself.


But after a few days with you guys, you've melted me into a fucking two tailed fox who wants to bone everyone. Isn't that just crazy?
Instead of cursing left and right like I normally do, I'm like D: nom kiss purr ^^ ....it's just insane. It's just not me.
But I mean all of it. Cos you guys rock.
And to think, I came on Furc thinking I'd get some roleplay for a few days and grow out of it, but as soon as I did some art I'm hooked to you guys. I don't even look for dreams to roleplay in anymore.

ANYWAY. I don't know why I wrote all of that. What I meant to say was -
" I feel a part of a pack too, ILU fae "
but it came out all strange and disorderly. Hope you enjoy love, You're ze' awesome.
See ya, :matteo:
(6:59:04 PM) [ You whisper "And just so you know, i don't have to know either side of you to tell you I think your a fucked up cool person, and I love you anyway. Im fucked up too, we should all stick togeather and just be who we wana be but arn't *smiles*" to Alice Darling. ]

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Im a Phenomena...
*is totaly gona add both your names just cuase*

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Im a Phenomena...

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