"i see your hearts gets bigger when you lose your friends.
and everyone's around you saying that it's not the end."

- the ready set.

It's not that I was seeing him, but I knew him from a year ago, back when I had a boyfriend, so obviously I wasn't like, hey he's kind of cute. Of course, when I saw him again this year... he was kind of cute. And judging from the way he'd been acting toward me earlier in the week gave me hope that I might actually have a chance.

Then today, he was talking about how this weekend he might go out on a date, so that kind of... deflated me, I guess? :[

Don't worry about me, though. Really. I'll work through it, just like I worked through the fact that I'm probably not going to see my Welsh boy ever again, unless nexxxt summer works out. Thanks for your concern though. :]

Or maybe I'm just another megalomaniac...

No, babe. He didn't. Kept talking to me and being painfully sweet.

But it is my fault, though. I should have been able to keep my barriers up. Not get too deep in.

I don't know how I'm going to take the nexxxt two weeks. Especially because I'm going to have to do a one-on-one scene with him when everything's said and done at the performance.

Or maybe I'm just another megalomaniac...

Ah, no, he didn't say it directly to me, it was just kind of a thing he said in front of everyone at the camp, like "yea, this is what I'm doing this weekend." And anyway, I suck at rejection. You have no idea. So if he really was taken, well then, that would be hell on wheels.

It doesn't sound harsh. It's good. A reality check. Thanks. :]

Or maybe I'm just another megalomaniac...

Oh, I know shit happens. I'm just prone to walking right into it. :]

Well... since I'm blaming myself...

Thank you. <3

Or maybe I'm just another megalomaniac...