Comment on I am a Christian. by shock777

There's plenty of scientific proof from my standpoint. But there are things that science cannot solve-such as miracles and personal experiences people have had with God such as myself. A believer and a non-believer can see the same "evidence" and have different conclusions so it does vary on perspectives. 

The rotten facts about the world is due to sin and the devil. According to my faith, whether the events of adam and eve were literal or just metaphorical, Humans distrusted God and caused sin to be a part of their life. There is sin and evil in the world because humans have free will. We can choose what is good and right,(which are things God has ordained and set up) or we can choose to do wrong and harm others (which is the absence of God, the absence of following his laws). That's all what sin is. Sin is the absence of God. 

However, redemption came when Jesus died for us. He was perfect in every way and yet human at the same time. It cannot easily be explained, even by us believers. But that's why faith exists to fill in the gaps. I am fine with not knowing every little thing. God has his answers and his proofs, but maybe we're just not meant to see it all until the day he comes back. 

As to why I am christian, That's a long story. Honestly, anyone can claim to be christian. But I had an experience with God. I believed in him first, growing up in a christian home and all that. But My faith was pretty brittle. Even though I believed, I was struggling with church and the stories they told in the bible. Until one day I encountered the living god on my own. I was at a church revival that my parents drug me to. About age 14, about to enter high school. I didn't wanna be there because I hated church and God was kind of a big mystery to me. I also had a mean headache and whatnot. But this guy came up on stage and he claimed himself a prophet. Prophet is just a big fancy word for someone who hears God and what he says. This guy spoke to the congregation. "there's someone here who doesn't want to be here, and is hurting deep inside but God has a plan for her and she's here today for a reason. God loves you so much and he wants to heal you. if you believe that's you, raise your hand and I'm gonna pray for you right quick." 

Idk what came over me but I rose my hand, something in my heart knew he was talking directly at me. And to this day, all I can say that this felt like was as if a harpoon had hit me straight through the heart. Some unseen force just shot at me from the pulpit and I was on the ground, shaking and convulsing in laughter and fits of sobbing. Laughing and crying at the same time while this unknown presence was upon me, I was left to wonder inside my mind what exactly was happening. Sure, I believed in God, but now he was so real. I was feeling HIM. He was there, and it felt like pure joy and love drowning me in warmth and laughter. I was moved to tears because it was so emotional. I couldn't lift my head off the ground....It was so heavy but it was a pleasant feeling. There are no words or scientific proofs to show what this feels like or what it is. I can't really convince you of anything either. I don't lie about this kind of thing though, so I guess you might have to take my word for it. Nothing prepared me to have this experience. Nothing special or out of the ordinary, just...I went to a revival at church and suddenly I am feeling God upon me, pure love entering in my heart over and over again and again. My headache had disappeared, and it was quite a while before i could stand and sit back in my chair. 

While that was happening, the prophet dude was praying for others in the crowd and my stepdad received healing for his back. Others were laughing same as me, and my mother and grandmother were both flopped over in their seats sobbing their eyes out like crazy. It was a WILD night that day! And after that it was like my eyes had opened. God was never really Real to me...Sure I believed him, but I had never seen nor heard nor felt him there. It always felt like emptiness when I prayed or that no one was listening. I still have feelings like that today. But I was sure in that moment God was real and the best part yet was that he LOVED me. It was pure, sweet love. No other motives were behind that experience. God didn't ask me to pray or even to read the bible or go to church every sunday. He loved me where I was and he loved me so...passionately and so unfiltered that it was a major turning point in my life. 

Why I stayed a believer is because after that experience, I began having many more. I would have dreams and visions at night of things to come. It's not magic nor is it like a ritual or voodoo or whatever you want to think. It's just that God is supernatural, and things cannot be explained. (Belief in god doesn't mean you have to denounce science tho lol don't think that just because i believe in God doesn't mean i dont think that gravity exists or that the earth is flat lol) I would have similar experiences where I would feel that same presence with me when I prayed or when I was on my knees crying out to God. I heard not an audible voice, but a voice in my soul many a time about different things about life and about myself and others that ended up being true. I went to ministry school for two years and during that time I was attacked by demons and I would experience angels. I have been with family members who were hurt and as I prayed for them, the muscle tissue in their bodies would grow back and they could walk again without use of a cane. There are SO many supernatural things that I have experienced and witnessed with my own eyes. 

But, these things never would happen nor wouldn't have happened if I didn't believe first. Faith is blind. God doesn't tell me everything there is to know about everything nor does he warn me about every little thing. I still get to choose how I live life, and I still mess up at times. A lot of the healings and experiences I had were AFTER I made the decision in my heart to believe even though "evidence" proved otherwise. God isn't as far-fetched as some would think. Through the suffering, the pain, the mistakes of others and yourself, there is a small whisper and a tiny narrow road. The road is not as traveled and the voice is so hard to hear but if you willingly choose to listen for it, you just might hear something. 

Idk. I'm not trying to sway you a way or another, this is just my personal testimony and how I feel things are. I still struggle with my own faith because it's truly unbelievable! I understand where you're coming from, believe Me!!