Aww
I'm sorry to hear that things aren't going well for you.
As for your feelings, becoming straight when you otherwise don't wish to be, I'm... not entirely sure what advice I can give you to get rid of those feelings :/ Closest I can say, maybe, is if you can try to avoid the people that instill these feelings? Or, try to ignore the feelings themselves?
Also, I just have to say this too, this a very nice drawing of my queen. Very sad, but also very nice
You put so much splendid detail into her mane here, and here eyes also look simply marvelous
Those tears are even nicely drawn, too.